Let the resounding of my sigh be heard across the world. School has ended. (And I got a 3.8 for the semester. Woohoo!)
At least for the summer. I'm finished with 19 hour days filled with wonderful rehearsals, terrible final projects, and stress inducing finals. At least 'til next fall. As I look at the joy, sense of accomplishment, and release of stress that finishing school brings I can't help but laugh. I am tickled pink (oh but that's a strange colloquialism) when I think about finishing school. It will never happen. In fact, my son has taken to quoting the old "Stay in school!" campaign. He has given it a unique twist though and says, "Stay in School. Don't Graduate!" If only he knew how sadly true that is. I've been in school as long as my older brother. That wouldn't be so bad, except that he's a doctor, and I'm studying to teach high school.
Fortunately though, I will graduate. If everything goes right, I will graduate next spring. But then I will teach in High school. And I will look forward to summers for a break again. So, I will stay in school.
Summers bring a strange mix of emotions though. I feel elated that I have time to write. Then I feel frustrated because I don't. To be fair, I've only been out of school for a week, but still it's there. One of the most difficult things to get accustomed to is my family. For months at a time they rarely see me, and when I'm home I spend time with them. So now that I'm home all the time it's family time all the time. That's not so bad, but in the last week the only 'Me' time I've had was when I stayed up much later than I should have and then I was groggy and sleepy for the next day. I just don't know how to tell my kids, "Daddy can't play right now, I need a minute for myself." And they just think that when I'm home it's playtime. Those darned little devils. They don't know that when we play I get tired. They don't, so why should daddy?
And to top it off, I'm nervously twitching because I'm sure that I have an assignment sitting somewhere and I've forgotten to do it. I just don't know what to do with free time. Luckily by about the end of August I will understand how to live, write, play with my kids, play with my wife, and enjoy some time to myself. I will be in balance, and I'll know how to do it. Then school will start again.
So, as soon as I get the balance I'll take some time for me to write, or work, or breathe. And then I'll be back on here regular. (Sorry, but during school I had to drop something. I thought long and hard about dropping homework, but in the end I decided the blog was the leas important.) Until then...
3 comments:
Keep writing Master Derrick. Every day. You are not alone in the universe.
I've been out of class for about a week, and last night I developed 'the twitch' too. I just knew, I KNEW there was some type of homework assignment that had to be done.
Fortunately for me, a couple of beers helped me forget all about it.
Nothing like alcohol to push your worries away, well at least until you're sober again.
Congratulations on such good grades for this last school year. Impressive. All your teachers have taught you well.
Enjoy the summer. Good luck creating a schedule. If you need some alone time, take a walk, or go to the library, or go to the hills and take your notebook.
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